Saturday, September 15, 2007
I'm relieved that it stopped raining yesterday and that we were able to get the rest of my stuff moved this weekend. I cannot describe the huge relief I feel for being done with the whole situation. I just hope I don't have to move for a couple of years. But with my track record, I'm sure there will be some reason for me to move in just a year or so. I told Gary today that I didn't want to move for a long time and that next time, regardless of the cost, I want to hire movers. It was nice to have lots of help with this move, but I just can't do as much myself, not with the way my back has been outta wack. I do not have all my things settled by any means, but I think I can get things mostly situated tomorrow. And I get to sleep in a real bed tonight, for the first time since Sunday!!! Oh the simple pleasures... I must sleep now, my body is exhausted. I'll write more soon about the ins and outs of my life. Much love and many blessings ~Cass
Monday, September 10, 2007
I move so often, I should buy stock in U-haul. Oh well, I guess I just transition more quickly than most. This literal move feels like a mental move as well; I mean that I believe that I have done lots of maturing and growing as a person in the past year. And though there have been significant "growing pains" this time around, they have been necessary and enlightening. It was always my belief, back in the day, that taking care of yourself mentally and making choices for you was entirely selfish, but now I see that isn't quite the case. I've grown to understand the importance of taking care of yourself and making choices that are not quite selfish but not always so selfless. I grew tired of being everything to everyone and never feeling I could rely on others or that I had the right to. I believe that my health and my happiness have greatly improved from the lessons I've learned in this sometimes painful process. God has been good to me, He has not given me more than I can accept (though it felt that way from time to time) and He has restored my faith in many areas of humanity. Also, He has helped me to see truths that I never quite accepted before. I am grateful for His love and His guidance. I am also so thankful that He has given me the greatest love of my Earth-bound life and has helped Gary and I along no matter the obstacles. I have so many things to be happy about and to see His love in and I pray that I will continue to find more peace as time goes on. I pray that I become the woman He designed me to be and that I will be the wife and mother that I dream to be. So though this literal change of address isn't really a big move, it is a huge step in the direction of my new life and my improved self. For His peace and His guidance, I am eternally grateful....